Tiada apa yang bermain difikiran aku sekarang ni sebenarnya..kosong semata-mata..aku hanya memandang skrin laptop aku ini..sambil menekan kekunci laptop ini tanpa ada sebarang perasaan..tiada motif aku menulis blog ini...haha..hanya cuba melakukan sesuatu untuk mendapatkan ilham..ye la..mana tau tengah menulis post ni..tiba-tiba dapat ilham kan.....ok.......ermm.....nak cakap pasal ape?....ah...politik?....tiada isu menarik lately...pass....k...erm...sukan? tiada orang berminat kot.....lagipun aku maniac F1 ngan Man Utd je...so sure bnyk orang tak minat...hehe...pass......pasal bulan? asyik bulan aje...nanti aku type something pasal bulan sure sama ngan Alina punya idea pulak...tak best pulak...pass...haha...bout masakan? rahsia...tak boleh dedah resepi aku...haha..resepi meggi goreng boleh la...haha....passssss.....arghhhh....so....ape nak tulis ni.....pasal condemn orang? nak condemn siapa? aku okay ajer dengan semua orang ( siapa tak senang dengan aku, cakap aje ngan aku :p)................................*sigh*........................err.........em..........the girl in green pun x siap2 lagi...tiada idea sebenarnya..............."the girl in green" pun tak dapat dihubungi...so minta maaf la..terpaksa tangguh................so.......akhirnya....aku dah tahu ape aku nak tuis....yeah!!!.......ape dia? ni la....ini aje aku nak type...ini aje penghabisan dan penamat bagi post kali ini...sebab.....fikiranku kosong... :D

I...cannot count the times people I hardly know have referred to me as a "friend," or have written to me and signed their email "your friend," or done some such thing... I have come to believe that, second only to "love," friend is the most misused word in the world...

It is not my wish to offend or to hurt anyone who has, in the past, called himself my "friend," but merely to set them straight. There are a good many upstanding people...people whom I admire...who have called themselves "friends." Most of these are people who I enjoy spending time with and conversing with, but they are not friends. These people must learn to distinguish between "friendliness" and "friendship."

Haha..anyway I am not the type of person who has just one best friend...I would like to think that I have many best friends. There are a few people that I would spend time with after class and would go to the mall or the movies, and such. But on the other hand I have friends I would never spend time with after class, they are fine has school acquaintances, but nothing much more. Well, for those who don't know me..actually I am very shy at first, once I get to know the person...I am not shy at all. Now I do not think I am a hard person to get along with either. Sure I have my ups and downs, but everyone is not perfect.

I still think that I suffer from split personality in the most mild sense of it. There are times when I am extremely hyper that I irritate everyone including myself but there are also times when I just shut myself up...that people don't know what's going on in my head. I can be loud, sarcastic (many can testify to that..haha), moody,but above all, here is the cheesy part...I do actually love my life...my family and my friends... they make me happy :)

I'm no hero, you remember how I was, you know..all I ever did was worry, feeling out of control
to the point where everything was going end over end..I'm spinning around in circles again..this is where you come in..All of this to explain to you why I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be..But I had to protect you from me..That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there..I know you felt unprepared..But every single time I was around I just bring you down..And I could tell that it was time to be scared..That's why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there..And I know the way I left wasn't fair..I didn't want to be around just to bring you down because I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care.........................

Err..I have no idea how on earth this "diamond-girl's best friend" quotes suddenly popped up in my mind..anyway, the traditional way of getting your hand on a diamond used to be either mining or marriage!..haha..but modern science has brought us synthetic diamond, created in lab using multi-million ringgit technology..however there's a *myth that you can make your own precious diamond, all from the comfort of your own home..but how? well, you need metals like nickel, cobalt and iron, a few dunno-what chemicals and a initial seed-some small diamond (what? you need a little piece of diamond to start the diamond?? ) and a pressure cooker..wow..a home made diamond..haha..we know how this works..in the end we could be a millionaire! =D

*Internet source

Bulan..semalam tengok Discovery Channel pasal bulan..haha, seronok la..bulan ni sangat unik,tapi kenapa? erm..perhaps the easiest way to describe.............er........look..the moon's surface is marked by impact craters..which form when asteroids and comets collide with the lunar surface kan..so one thing for sure, it ain't that beautiful..tidak secantik mana..but then again, bulan cantik kan? sebab setiap malam yang gelap, ia menerangi bumi ini..setiap malam yang kelam, bulan seolah2 memberi cahaya harapan, di malam yang gelap, bulan muncul menjadi penyuluh di dalam kegelapan..bulan sentiasa ada ketika kita di dalam kegelapan..

in reality (bukan program realiti bodoh akademi fantasia, ini realiti genuine!), jadilah seperti bulan..kita mungkin cantik, mungkin tidak..tetapi rupa paras itu tidak penting. Apa yang penting adalah sumbangan kita terhadap orang2 di sekeliling kita..kita ada ketika mereka sedih, kita ada ketika mereka gembira, kita ada ketika mereka kesunyian..buruk sekali manapun rupa paras kita, asalkan kita memberi kebahagian hanya kepada seorang sahaja sekalipun, orang tersebut akan menyukai kita..

* pernah tak terfikir menamakan anak anda "bulan"? haha..its a beautiful name anyway.. :) *

Could somebody please make all the reality programme go away? I have enough reality in my life already. I don't need to see any more of it when I turn on my television..especially Akademi Fantasia ( freaking hate this so called reality show"!)

I'm not even sure why shows like this are called "reality." Alas, my reality does not usually include singing . My reality is far, far more exiting. If Astro really wanted to have a show that seemed realistic to me, it wouldn't be Akademi Fantasia, it would be Man Vs Wild. That is the reality out there..hey..c'mon lah..what is the point? do we need more singers?

This is my little sister, Nurul Ain Nadiah..haha..x tau kenapa tapi saja2 letak gambar dia..anyway, agak jeles dngn dia..even though she's only 9 years old...dia dh lagi bnyk travel overseas compare to me..haha..how lucky she is.. :)

guys... since I am busy with final exam this week...so xde new post lah..perhaps until Friday kot..à tout à l'heure =)

in progress.. :p

Time chemistry, tengah seronok aku tengok gelagat fit'ri dengan aiman bergurau..tiba2 si naza tiba2 panggil aku dengan gaya samseng dia..aku pun pelik..tapi aku pergi je sebab dia dah panggil..sampai je kat dia, dia cakap ada orang nak jumpa aku..rupanya Fatin Aqilah..dia tiba2 marah aku..rupanya pasal apa yang berlaku semalam, ketika aku dan syafiq dan Ikin berada di discussion room..time tu syafiq sibuk bertanya dengan ikin pasal gosip Fatin Aqilah ni dengan budak 1st year medic..aku cuma dengar aje..tapi harini tiba2 aku jadi mangsa seolah-olah aku yang menyebarkan cerita ini..padahal aku tak tahu apa2..aku cuma dengar aje..ntah apa ikin cerita kat Fatin Aqilah..tapi masa dia marah2 aku, aku cuma senyum aje la..nak buat macam mana..takkan nak gertak dia kan..aku cakap kat dia elok2 yang aku x tahu apa2..suruh tanya syafiq..tapi dia still marah2..geng2 dia (nik, hafizah, fatin iman, min) dah pandang aku semacam aje..hish...geram aku..ntah ape salah aku x pasal2 kena macam tu..sebab mulut merepek cerita bukan2, aku yang tak tahu ape2 jadi mangsa..arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

perangai suka mengumpat sesetengah pelajar foundation tempat aku banyak menimbulkan masalah..dan yang lagi best, mengumpat tak reti cover sampai cerita tersebar..tapi tak apa la..dosa diorang yang tanggung..tapi bila kena kat aku sendiri ni..rasa nak tampar je muka sorang2..mengumpat kalau betul takpe..ni dah la salah info..salah orang pulak tu!

Think about this..

" you have one apple and I have one apple..then we exchange our apple. In the end, both of us will only have one apple. Let say you have one knowledge and I have one knowledge..then, we exchange our knowledge..in the end you will have two knowledge and I will have two knowledge.."

thanks to Nani.

tikus yang telah diseparatekan oleh aku dan maryam...soo pathetic..

stress? dont worry mate..but how? =D

1. Avoid stressful people.
Stress actually is contagious. During exam week, resist the urge to have a study session with your super-tense friend, especially if she/he is complaining about all the work she/he has to do. His/Her stress will only add to your stress.

2. Eat healthy and exercise.
Ha..It’s a wonder how many people forget this. Skip the sugar, which will make you crash, and go for snacks like healthy cereal or fruits to keep your blood sugar stable. If you’re studying for a long period of time, eat some protein too. Also, try to get some form of exercise. Even a 10 minute walk will leave you calmer and more focused.

3. Force yourself to take breaks.
For every hour or so that you work, take a 10 or 15 minute break. Let yourself do whatever you want (check Facebook, check your blog (tngh buat sekarang..hehe), stare off into..whatever you want, call a friend, and etc. for those 10-15 mins, then start working again. Don't malas-malas okay?

4. If you’ve studied all you can, get up your confidence!
When test-time rolls around, it’s time to get yourself into confidence mode. You’ve prepared as much as you could, and now it’s time to ace the test. The tip here is to do whatever works to convince yourself you are going to do really well. If you think you don't study that hard..then do what Hariz always do..which is...well..you know kan?haha

Funny how in real life, we don’t talk to family and friends about the Top Ten Reasons for Living or for Writing a Blog.

Funny how we don’t speak so scholarly or perfectly or as much filled with wisdom and insight like when we used to when posting our best articles on the web.

Funnier still how they always seem interested in what we’re going to say, even if it just be our perennial whines about the college or about a movie we have watched the night before.


Why do they yearn to hear us even though they’ve already heart about most of what we’re going to say?

Why do they continue to await our company?

Why do they keep on tuning in to our hearts?

Maybe the answer lies in that last part. We wanted to keep in touch not with the external things, but with the person deep inside. You see, that’s how love works, and when love works, you never get tired of it.

semalam (sabtu) hari yang kurang produktif..bangun awal..kemas bilik..kemas rumah, basuh baju...then..pergi main camp..alina suruh aku makan nasi lemak..aku pn makan..then najib pulak dah siap bungkuskan aku nasi lemak tu..rasa rugi plak x gi toastmaster..then sejam kat main camp..aku balik semula cyberia, jalan kaki sebab nak pergi meeting persatuan penduduk kat cyberia ni..masuk je meeting tu..rasa segan plak sebab semua org dah berumur..aku je orang muda..in case anda tertanya2 kenapa aku gi meeting ni? well...aku ada rumah kat sini sebenarnya..tapi rumah aku budak mmu sewa..so aku kena duduk kat rumah under cucms..x kisah la..meeting tu best gila..mcm2 proposal ada..x larat nak cerita..then habis je meeting tu..aku g main camp..sampai je bukak blog..facebook..then around 8pm start study..buat lab report..makan nasi lemak yang najib tolong bungkuskan tu..err..pastu relax2..melayan pak guard cerita pasal zaman komunis la..jepun la..bla bla bla..dah dekat pukul 10pm..john datang..so aku, fit'ri, najib g main ping pong..smpai kol 11 lbh..then sambung smula wat kerja...dah sampai pukul 12am..hari ahad...semua dah malas nak balik..so decided tido je kat main camp ni..dlm pukul 12 lebih, najib ngan fitri dah tido..aku pulak segar lagi..then tngk bleach..study...then pergi tengok cadaver sorang2...dah xde keje..haha..so sekarang ni...dah pukul 3.30 pagi (masa aku tulis line ni la)..aku still x ngantok...dan aku rasa rugi..nak tido...waaaa :(

hehe..another photo masa kecik2..gambar ni diambil masa saya kat Castle Urquhat, and tasik kat belakang tu tasik Loch Ness yang popular dengan mitos raksasa air tu..seronok pergi tempat ni..masa ni saya baru umur 4 tahun kot..muka time kecik2 lain kan...and..in case korang tak tahu mana satu saya..teka aje la..haha

" Have you ever thought of an answer to reply to anyone, when they ask you, "What was the world like when you were a child? Some of the experiences may cause us to smile, or even laugh, while some of them may bring back bitter memories. It is always hard to express the childhood incidents or experience in a clear and interesting way, since they were past memories that happened long time ago..and, if you ask me about this picture, I can't really tell you what it is all about. Therefore, I'll let the picture speak for itself..but one thing for sure, budak kecil yang pakai coat biru tu akan cakap "I'm having a good time! yay!"..alahai..I miss my childhood very very much..anyway, sayalah budak tu :p"

*This picture was taken at Newcastle, England around 92-94.

huhu..last night nampak circular halo..and it is very beautiful..my very first time nampak circular halo during night..well, what is halo? game? not really..A halo is an optical phenomenon that appears near or around the Sun or Moon. Circular halo usually caused by ice crystals in cold cirrus clouds located high in the upper troposphere. The particular shape and orientation of the crystals is responsible for the type of halo observed. Light is reflected and refracted by the ice crystals and may split up into colors because of dispersion, similarly to the rainbow. well..again..we can see..how wonderful our world is..and again..the world is just awesome.. subahanallah :)

*photo credit to Phang.

"The sky is clear
The air is clean
The land is green
Thank you Allah

The path we walk
The lines we talk
The thing we see
Thank you Allah
Thank you Allah

Say Thak You Allah
Thank You Allah

When I sleep
When I eat
When I breath
Thank You Allah
Thank You Allah

Say Thak You Allah
Thank You Allah"

wee..so happy..i'm an organ donor..dah lama nak pledge jadi organ donor ni, tapi tangguh2..but dapat peluang during world kidney day haritu..apa lagi..terus aje sign up..haha..sesuai la kot dengan nama aku, kamarul yang bermaksud "bulan purnama", bulan purnama kan cerah even pada waktu malam..mencerahkan harapan orang2 yang berada dalam kegelapan..bulan sangat cantik bagi aku..ntah kenapa, sebenarnya aku suka tengok bulan waktu malam..haha...oh ya...out of topic already *sigh*..so kawan2..jadilah penderma organ k?.. =D

kecewa TGS tergamak membelot terhadap rakan sebiliknya sendiri..walaupun motif video kontroversi itu atas dasar "suka-suka", perbuatanya telah mencetuskan masalah besar, even aku yang tak terlibat ni pun turut terasa kesanya..alhamdulillah, klip video tu sudah dibuang dari Youtube..kami memaafkan dia..cuma yang pasti, kami sudah hilang kepercayaan kepadanya..kecewa kerana walaupun kami berkelakuan dan melayan TGS dengan baik..namun itu tidak cukup baginya...entahlah...

quinn anne..yang fascinated dngn longhorn beetles..cute lah~ :D

kadang2 laki pun boleh jadi gedik kot...hehe

It is so simple and so easy to get what we want that we have a hard time to believe it. We are programmed to do things the hard and difficult way, in order to get what we want. We can not believe that we can get anything without hard labour, sweat and tears, obstacles and misery.

This is nothing else but a tough old programmation, a conditioning from our childhood. If you are like me, you were bombarded as a child with expressions from adults about how hard life is and how we have to struggle to get something. We needed to avoid being bad or wrong, but disease could strike us anyway. Sometimes they even said : "It's again a good one who's punished, and the bad one take off easily like usual without paying anything!". We learned that life wasn't fair. We lived in fear and thought life was a valley of tears, fear, struggle, pain, disease
and death.

How would it have been if they've told us the truth? The truth, nothing but the truth? That life is easy, wonderful. That miracles happen all the time and that we have the power to make them happen in our own life! That the universe loves us. That there is wealth and health for everyone. That we don't live in a universe of scarcity but of abundance. That we only have to put the right thoughts in our heads to make these dreams real for us.

If you would have known from the beginning that you were a creation of the Creator, that you will always remain, that you will always be around, that you were created for a reason, and when you find this reason you will be happy, what would your life look like now? If you were told that you had talents, unique qualities, that make you a special person, and that you are on earth with the mission to offer these talents to others, where would you be right now and what would you be doing now?

We are already wonderful! We are already loved! We are already rich! We are already free! We are already intelligent! We are already healthy!
Why? Because we were all this before we started our life. It is the way we really are. It is the way we were created, we were born. This is the truth about ourselves. Everything else is "learned" afterwards.

And again, life is wonderful, because a positive thought is 10,000 times more powerful than a negative thought. So you don't have to take another 40 years to undo the negative conditioning in your head. One positive thought can counterbalance 10,000 negative ones.

Can you imagine? Aren't we lucky?

well..thanks to my cousin for this photo..anyway, what do u think bout this picture? interesting is it?..haha..well..this is life..full of unexpected things..

Mika Hakkinen, Kimi Raikkonen, Lewis hamilton, Juan Pablo Montoya, David Coulthard, Fernando Alonso, Heikki Kovaleinen, Pedro De La Rosa,

Lewis Hamilton and Heikki Kovaleinen...love em so much..big fan of F1( since i was 12) especially Mclaren Mercedes..ex mclaren driver...Mika Hakkinen..David Choulthard,Kimi Raikkonen, Juan Pablo Montoya, Pedro De la Rosa, Lewis Hamilton, Fernando Alonso, Heikki Kovaleinen..awesome guys... :)

Perhaps it is the most difficult question to answer..but think wisely and you will find the answer..look around you..the world is just awesome..and the way i see it, we definitely have at least one reason to live..and some people have countless reason to live..we are here because we are the messenger of god..we are here because we need to protect the earth..we are here because we have what animals don't have..not the brain, but "akal"..and therefore we must think and act the way a human should behave, because if we behave like animals..than we've lost our dignity, lost our soul..lost our pride as a human..what I'm trying to say here...for whatever reason we live today..we must take that reason and continue to do what we must do..and do it wisely..and one more thing, give a wise man instruction, then he would be yet wiser...

well..just wanna share my thought..to deal with a backstabbing friend..When you realize a friend has been talking bad, or what so freaking ever about you behind your back..what should you do? well..ignore him/her would be the best way to do or what i call "silent protest"..freaking hate this kind of people!